the nightmare continues…i’m a buzzin in my madness and i know no better so have some sympathy…i am drowning in a sea of other people’s music, and want to create create create…but creation seems technologically impossible…get the idea down onto a track…what track?? tracks?? on my arm!?!?
hello hello hello every 5 seconds while someone’s crying in the background and an acoustic guitar gently caresses the soul and the dichotomy makes sense to me in my head…get it down…
as i reach to the future the past runs ahead and sticks it’s protruding tongue in my direction as i run in the present not knowing which way to go…sometimes it all seems too much but i don’t feel a breakdown coming…i’ve had 2 before and this is different…this is creative tension!!!
the need to get it down get it down as the years pass by and i get one step closer to the end…no melodrama, it happens to us all…
potential unfulfilled is haunting and keeps the drive going…then again it can shut it down completely if it gets too overwhelming or you’re dreaming in your scheming and goddammit the talent just ain’t there you’re just bullshitting yourself and that’s ok…
bullshit keeps us alive…
then again what the hell do i know i’m just trying to live to the best of my potential no matter how small that potential is…all you can do is try and keep on trying cause the word will never get written down the way you want it…the tune will never be as beautiful as it is in your head…and the idea will be holy in it’s purest state inside your mind, but when it’s out, it seems...empty…
when sex or the lack of sex was engulfing my mind in anger and confusion creativity seemed the purest form of masturbation… the anger was pure the masturbation was hard and direct…
then you get older and masturbation just seems…tiring…a duty... the purity gets lost in cynicism but no no no can’t give in to cynicism that’s too easy and predictable…embrace whatever little creativity you have left and drown in it…it doesn’t have to end…keep it hard…keep it direct…let wisdom give you an erection and keep on stroking until the end comes and your body collapses and your mind starts to rot…
i still dream adventures that feel real seem real…i can still get off on a song that hits my inner sanctum and arouses something, something that can still make me feel…
the feeling i get when i look at my family: spouse, dog, cat…and that love is pure and true, and keeps me from saying fuck it fuck it…i’ve had enough of this shit…cause it’s too easy to fall into that trap, and it is a trap, it’s a cage…you gotta roam you gotta search and seek…it’s a huge fucking world out there and there’s an awful lot going on…
death is a trip we all take and I don’t want or expect anything to happen afterwards…the cycle of life will go on without me like it did before me…i’ll do what i can while i’m here…
you can worry about bank balances and the future and everything…all you can do is do the best you can and then laugh and say i tried baby i tried and know that you really did try…it’s no joke…
but
if the effort is lacking and the soul becomes lazy then you risk becoming a walking dead a piece of human clay walking around with a vacant look wondering what’s it all about…and then you become vulnerable to fit into the…majority…and that’s what you need to avoid…our race is made up of individuals…not puppets manufactured to all look and feel and think the same…but individuals with different feelings different emotions different outlooks…
don’t impose but share your vision then others will decide how much if anything to take what you have to offer…too much imposing on each other…
i respect my nightmares and i respect my dreams now i know i have to respect my creativity to let myself be free and free is all I can and want to be… *********************
Les Rallizes Denudes: Mizutani 1970-1971 (1991) This is a motherfucking stone cold classic. I LOVE THIS ALBUM!!!! His singing is great...though I don't know what the fuck he's saying!!! The guitar is so melodic...yet discordant...yet powerful... soft....emotions from bliss to hell.... psychedelic noise entering your ear drums and rat a tat tat the cells float around in your soup bowl cranium. This is such an easy 5 *****. Brilliant fucking stuff...listen to this band's work and you'll become a better person. I guarantee it!!! and i wasn't even on drugs listening to it!!!! Here's a link to some info
Glory: A Meat Music Sampler (1969) From Houston, Texas comes an obscure classic. I love the feel of this one... late night dark and smokey let the tape roll capture the event... Wow!!! I just checked this out on Rate Your Music and it's been given a 1.86 for 7 reviews. Incredibly bad...bizarre dude!!! Maybe I'm out of my ever lovin' mind, but I really enjoyed this one. Hahahahaha I just pushed it up to 2.37!!!
Other Great Listens Gila: Gila (1971) just starting to get into these guys...awesome shit.
German Oak: Niebelungenlied (1976) yeh yeh more krautrock as the world worries whether the ultra conservative John McCain (no matter what the republicans want you to believe!) fucked a lobbyist years ago or not. I mean...listening to rambling krautrock is more enjoyable than thinking about John McCain having sex....or not...
Sir Lord Baltimore: Kingdom Come (1970) Sir Lord Baltimore (1971) heavy early 70s primo stuff. most people like the 1st one best...I differ and prefer the 2nd...they're both pretty damn good, and if you like your Sabbath check these guys out.
Edgar Broughton Band: Edgar Broughton Band (1971) God...I love these guys!!!
My Solid Ground: My Solid Ground (1971) children can make some pretty fucking great music too!! The band leader was 17 at the time. This is great stuff and worth hearing. good going kids!!! &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
I signed my official "Letter of Offer" from Northern health and am officially a Life Skills Worker until October (when the guy comes back from paternity). I'm looking forward to it! The mentally ill have a lot to teach!!! And I'm fucking serious Kerouac!!!!! **********************
Let's end with an absolutely awesome video of Les Rallizes Denudes from 1976 all hail dirk2222!!!
Here's some first impressions from new albums...by some classic old farts. Well, 2 are reissues, but fuck it!
Ray Davies: Working Man's Cafe (2007) I am VERY impressed!!! This sounds absolutely stone cold classic. Maybe I'm a-hallucinating on raindrops, but man is this the best Ray since the 70s??? Besides being catchy as all fuck, the thing I like about this is Ray isn't forcing his rock. He's letting this flow naturally, and the hooks sink in pulling you onto Ray's boat...I find this much better than last years's Other People's Lives (2006) which was good, but had a bit of that forcedness...all you Ray and Kinks fans (and you should be!) listen to this motherfucker and enjoy!!!
Vanilla Fudge: Out Through the In Door (2007) A cover of Zep songs...in 2007??? By Vanilla fucking Fudge???? Well, I was hoping it would be more over the top, but I guess Zep were already over the top (and over the hills and far away...). The Fudge play it fairly straight, and show they are the best Zep cover band around. Weird...I'm not sure what to make of it...
Kevin Ayers: The Unfairground (2007) This was one of Mole's 2007 favs, so I was looking forward to listening to Mr. Ayer's musical musings. Mole's right. This is excellent! There's a darkness underneath it all that is...ironically...very appealing.
Mott the Hoople: Live Fillmore West 1970 (2006) Mott the Hoople were one of the best live bands of the early 1970s...just listen to any of there increasing number of archival releases for proof...and this baby!!! Listen to Ian Hunter chastise the audience...punk before punk...it sounds like these guys didn't give a shit except for rockin' out, and rockin' out hard. And if the audience didn't want to rock out...well, fuck em!!!!!!!!!
C,S,N & Y: Studio Archives 1970 (2006) A bootleg release. There's lots of neat stuff on this...as usual Neil's is the best. There's absolutely some classic, and I mean classic, dialogue. What a bunch of stoned egocentric hippies! Hilarious. Stills and Crosby all stoned and full of themselves...classic. I won't spoil it for anyone. Worth it for the dialogue alone!
Man...I really can't stand David Crosby!!! *****************
"Midnight Lady" by Mott in 1971 on Australian TV. Awesome Awesome Awesome Awesome Awesome Awesome!!!!!! thanks thecatkeaton
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Happy Valentine's Day Guru T-Lu!!!!!! And Poobah and Trouble!!!!! &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&
I am ME. I'm into music, computers, walking on the ocean, poetry, monitoring my depression, and most of all my partner and confidante Guru T-Lu. I sang(?!) and wrote lyrics for "The Hated Uncles", published some poetry, was an independent pro wrestler, and now it's time to share my opinions and thoughts on whatever the hell I want!
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