Music: Roy Harper (3 youtubes), Tim Buckley and Tangerine Dream are awesome!!

Time to knock out a quickie music post
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Roy Harper is really good...he has a really great voice...he writes strong lyrics...I really enjoy listening to him when he pops up on my mp3...but there's something there that's keeping him out of my top tier of favs...why is that? what is it? not sure, but he's certainly worth checking out, which you can do at earls psychedelic garden (prob. my fav - Stormcock 1971) and see what you think.

Tim Buckley is another guy with an amazing voice who has reached the top tier of my favs at various points through the past 10 years, but when I listen to his live albums he sure sniffles a lot...hmmmmm....

Tangerine Dream -- they've won me over and i am now a huge fan! What took me so fucking long?!?!?! Check out lots of live Tangerine Dream at Sugarmegs Streaming Server.

still d/l tons of live shows at sugarmegs and it's driving me crazy! TOO MUCH MUSIC!!! bs..never too much music...

i'm in the process of d/l a 10cd box of High Rise: Psychedelic Atmosphere Beatnik Tour 2000 at bleak bliss...i can NOT resist...thank you Mr. Bliss!!
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I'm a little under the weather today, but I'm transitioning back into the computer world - and that makes me HAPPY! So much to learn!!! I'm lovin' it!!!!!
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Since this was a shitty little post, I better leave off with some youtubes...I chose 3 Roy Harper live vids and like I said - he's really good...

Here's Roy on The "Old Grey Whistle Test" from 1977 playing One of Those Days in England from HQ (which was the album I listened to which made me think "hmmmm...Roy Harper? He's good. Shouldn't I like him more?") thanks RoyHarperFan.


From 1986 Roy does One Man Rock'n'Roll Band. hmmmm...watching this man play live is making me think I better revisit him soon...great guitar playing! thanks Zelig666.


Roy playing "Hangman" with Jimmy Page in the mountains around 1984. thanks imagineerstube.

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What? I said!!!! What???????? I SAID!!!!

I have a million things to say

...but no one's listening

Now where's my pipe???

Ah...that's better!

Now what was I saying???

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Poetry(?): Shit

Shit

I may talk too much
about my shit
but that's just me dealing
with my shit,
I'm not saying my shit
is the worse shit of all,
or that it's worse than
your shit,
no no no shit no...

not at all

I know that I'm a lucky shit
since my shit
always hits the toilet bowl,
while I see lots of
people who have no
toilet bowl
to put their shit...

and you know what?

that's shit...

march 12, 2011
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STEVEN TYLER!!!

STEVEN TYLER!!!

ALL THE LADIES LOVE

STEVEN TYLER!!!

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Music: Sun Ra: Paris Tapes 1971 and 4 ra youtubes!!

i am absolutely freaking out on Sun Ra's: Paris Tapes 1971 disc 1...this is some primo wild ra...saucers swat notes out of the air like flies fleeing an incoming newspaper, and the arkestra follows the flies into every nook and cranny of the collective cranium of the...universe? cosmos?
wherever sun ra leads them...
follow them....
listen to ra...any era...the soul of the cosmos will open to you...
ra is speaking to me through his magical fingers dancing on his synthesizer and the chanting is hypnotic : "Somebody else's idea of somebody else's world, is not my idea of things as they are"...
and the final 22:42 of the final song on disc 1 watusi is a ride of crazy percussion and random screaming that makes all sort of sense and sounds...ethereal...
read about and d/l the paris tapes...
sun ra discography...
live in paris on art yard records (only the sampler..not the 2cd version)....
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ah fuck it...it's hard to talk about anyone else after sun ra...even though as klaus schulze's jubilee, vol. 17 comes on...nah, klaus deserves a full post soon...
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YOUTUBES of Sun Ra

Here's some black and white ra from West Berlin that is mind blowing...marshall allen is the one going nuts on the sax i believe...and some of the comments are hilarious...guess not everyone thinks this is music... i think it's beyond music!!...thanks erikmyxter

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when i heard that the sun ra arkestra was laying in hamilton and i was in northern bc and even though sun ra is dead marshall allen is still there and i bet the spirit would still be there and i wish i was...thanks 74elcaminohef

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wow...just, i mean...wow!!! thanks chieflittlenuts (lol)

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a short slice of way the fuck out there this is amazing shit...thanks tspgatmog

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Poetry: Anger

Anger

I shiver with rage at the lack of sensitivity
when I walk around your smelly downtown,
There was this asshole
who pushed me aside, he thought he was tough,
I'm not taking it - I've had enough!

Don't push me round
Don't put me down
Anger

Sex in the city, isolation's free
if you want to live miserably,
why don't you talk to me,
I'll remind you of your history,
we can't keep making the same mistakes
if we wanna die, naturally!

We gotta fight
We gotta right
Anger...

This anger cannot be constrained
This anger cannot be restrained,
it's time to spit it out
and let everybody know,
that it's too late to be sedate
we've got to let the anger flow!

We gotta fight
Don't push me round
Anger...

I hate working the night shift
under the stars so bright,
I'd rather be free of employment
making the manager's rich
while I struggle to pay my rent
all they do is bitch!!

Don't push me round
Don't push us round
Anger....Anger...Anger!!!!

written early 80s when I was around 20ish (and apparently working the night shift!). Recorded by The Hated Uncles 1985-1986 era.
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Rant: Jobs, Insurance Geeks, Computer Relief and still seeking the Light!

RANT

I have too much anger in me today...

This is not healthy.

I have incredible anger towards the insurance company that declined me for short-term disability benefits after a 3 year struggle doing Life Skills - something I never wanted to do in the first place, and ended up doing a fucking great job at, and it was good for maybe 6 months - until an accumulation of events lead me to numbing out...a sign that a "breakdown" is coming. I did the right thing - left work and made an appointment with the doc.

The doc listened to me for 45 minutes describe the events at work that led to me being there, and he got up and said: "you need 2 months off".
I felt relief...started going to the gym for the first time in over 10 years - so naturally I started to feel better after a couple of weeks...but, not even close to being ready to go back to work. 

Then this insurance clown calls (Tysen H.), and in a 30 minute conversation steered totally by him (as he read off the computer - I know, I worked at a call centre at a bank and you are not allowed to think - they tell you what to say right down to the exact phrasing!), he declined me for short-term disability benefits! Every fucking peon here gets short-term disability...except me! I obviously didn't play things up like I should have - I indicated that after 2-3 weeks I was improving - that was a mistake. I should have said I was still a mess...well, he made sure that I was going to be even a worse mess than before.

I have Major Depression and the last 7-8 years has been incredible hell with time periods of relief here and there. Then some joker behind a desk in Vancouver sends me a letter explaining what disease and disability are. I live with the fucking depression - so does the Guru - so does Poobah - and I don't like it and I want it to end (the depression, not life), but since that call declining my benefits I have started having panic attacks...something I didn't have regularly before..thank you Mr. Insurance Dickhead. [aside: btw - I have 2 docs who completely support me and can't believe I was declined - I'll appeal, and thanks to the 2 doctors for listening, and hearing, me.] 

I want to do computer work - I can for about 5 minutes...until my brain gets foggy...
I want to write - I put it off...

I know where I want to end up career wise, but I'm having a bastard of a time getting there.
I need to think like a web programmer once again...
I need to leave the bullshit jobs behind me or I'll never deal with this depression...
I'm stuck, but trying to claw back out...I can still see a light where anger can melt into something constructive, where creativity can reign supreme...or at least where I can have a job that is at least...ok...that would be...ok...

I needed this rant cause this is what's on my mind lately, and I gotta get it out...so I can leave it behind...and as I write this I can feel the anger dissipate just a bit...thank you for your time motherfuckers...
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note: cool pic from This Southern Blog (about someone dealing with autism).