Fucked Up Beyond Understanding
It's a bleak day, but the sun occasionally sneaks through for a couple of minutes. I pull back the curtains to let in the temporary light. I sigh and think about going back to bed. The racing mind brings a peaceful sleep to a screeching halt.
I'm trying to use this week as a form of rejuvenation, but it doesn't seem to be working well. The life skills job is driving me crazy. Not the clients - the fucking politics. A problem in moving to a small, isolated place coming from the city, is that you're used to a certain professionalism (due to job competition, I guess) and that professionalism is not here. Oh, there are a few people who are true professionals, but too many of the others are out of their fucking minds
don't understand boundaries
don't understand that - it's OK to disagree.
don't understand that there are usually more than 1 way of doing something -
don't understand that not everything is a fucking crisis!
Maybe I don't understand. I want to go do the job to the best of my abilities, and then leave the motherfucking job at the office, come home and focus on the important things to me - the guru, the pets, stirring the creative pot, web site design...but when the motherfucking job follows you home and sets up residence inside your brain...well, that will fuck you up!
and...I don't like being fucked up!!!!
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Debt Debris
Ah well, it's a common story through the ages. The working man's blues. Having difficulty at the job. Not doing what you really want.
And...the debt is coming down, but now we need a car (most likely a small truck for living here) and that will put the debt right back up there.
Ah well, that's become a common story for our day and age. Debts! We're all in debt! The government's in debt, you're in debt, I'm in debt, we're all swimming around in debt.
Debt debris floating in the sea of our lives....
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Control Will Suck Your Soul
Ha - sounding like a frustrated writer / artist above!!
Let's let it out!!!!!!!!!!!
breathe in breathe out
take a deep breath
open your eyes
look around
feed off energy
negative or positive
let it in let it out
feel the love feel the hate
let go of control
control will suck your soul
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Things I Am Digging
The incredible music from Japan thanks to Julian Cope's Japrocksampler.
Finally getting a chance to hear Miles Davis: Complete On the Corner Sessions.
LSD March modern day Japanese freak psychedelic music a modern day Les Rallizes.
Continuing to dig krautrock and discovering just how many krautrock obscurities there are.
Ring of Honor wrestling dvds.
The Wrestling Observer newsletter - thanks Imants!
Going through Mutant Sounds old posts.
The absolute beauty of Haida Gwaii.
The dog, the cat, the guru and my cds.
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Here's something else I dig - The Leaves doing "Hey Joe" probably around 1967. thanks verdiez!
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